A broken heart sometimes never mends

When I am an old woman someone may ask me a question as a conversation starter. They may ask me if I was ever in love. I will answer them honestly and tell them yes. I was in love once. I had many relationships before him, but he was the one I loved. My heart was closed before him, and has remained closed since him. He was bad for me and bad to me. It was not a happy relationship. But I loved him with my entire heart. I believe he was my true soulmate. Soulmate relationships are not always good relationships. They can be very short and very painful - as was this relationship. I want so badly to forget him, but I can't. And when it was over, my heart closed again. Never to reopen. So yes, I was in love once. It was the most painful experience of my life.