My heart hurts

My heart hurts so bad I can hardly breathe.  I miss you so much my chest hurts like I'm having a heart attack.  Things were so good between us for only a minute.  Then it all fell apart so fast I can't even begin to know what happened.  She got to you.  I requested respect.  She demanded you come home.  And you did, because it is what you know and it is safe.  Maybe not happy, but safe. You didn't have the courage to tell me the truth so you began treating me like the enemy. Like I was the one who created this whole mess.  You forgot so fast that I was the one who was on your side.  Who really tried to support you in what you said you wanted to do.  The damage you've left behind has been so challenging to clean up.  Most days it takes an act of God to peel me off the floor and face what I can of the world, which isn't much.  I hardly function anymore.  Everything, absolutely everything takes more energy than I can muster.  I'm not healing and I'm not making peace with what happened.  I loved you so.  I love you still.  And I can't stop crying.  You have shredded my heart and I don't think or believe I will ever be able to put it back together.